The Next Morning

It was now September 24th and the high risk specialist came in to talk to me. Once they entered the room my body immediately filled with anger. I knew exactly what they were going to say and I just didn't want to hear it. And just like a broken record they began to say, it was definitely your water that ruptured, and that most people go into labor within a week. Normally they give a steroid shot to help speed up the development of the lungs when they suspect you will deliver but since I am not 24 weeks there is nothing they can do for me. I still stuck with my decision to keep my babies and let nature take its course, but still the doctors continued with their negative attitude and gave me no hope. I said to them its almost like your trying to convince me to terminate my pregnancy when I repeatedly told you my decision. They said we have to tell you all the possibilities and outcomes. I responded yes I understand but once is enough and once I told you my decision that I am keeping the babies you can just throw all that negative crap out the window cause I don't want to hear it. I became nasty with the doctors because they weren't supporting me and my decision, it was like they were all against me and my babies. Finally they shut up and left the room. When they came back it was to give me my discharge papers and to schedule me to come back on October 18th when I would be 24 weeks and was then considered a viable pregnancy and they can administer the steroid shot for my babies lungs.  I was now on my way home and couldn't be any happier to be leaving that hospital.