First Stony Brook Experience

Still September 23rd, just later that day I was now sitting in Stony Brook Hospital in antepartum. There they did another sonogram, listened to the heartbeats and so on. Then the Doctors, well residents came in to talk to me. Again saying things I did not want to hear. They explained the situation. Which was, I had ruptured but only one of the babies sacs. Although you ruptured, your fluids are still at a good normal level. But since you did rupture it most likely was due to an infection which we would be unable to treat. Most people in your situation choose to terminate their pregnancy because low fluids lead to developmental issues with the lungs and limb movement and since you are only 20 weeks you are not considered a viable pregnancy until you are 24 weeks. Although I kept saying I am keeping these babies, I am not terminating my pregnancy, the doctors still proceeded with negative feedback. This angered me to no end because I was making it clear that I had my mind set that I am keeping them and I am willing to play the waiting game to see what happens from here. Once again they kept saying negative things such as I wouldn't count on your rupture sealing over because that rarely happens. Finally they sent me to my own room where I stayed over night. The doctors and nurses there had no hope I would make it that much longer, they were convinced I would go into labor that day or within a few days which meant losing my babies. They actually told my mom "tell the family your suffering a loss". My mom was totally thrown off by this and asked the nurse what she was talking about and she said "your daughter is losing these babies tonight". My mom immediately started to cry but did not tell me any of this because she knew that I needed to remain strong and keep positive. Later the nurses told me the high risk specialist will be in tomorrow morning to talk to me.